JUST A PRODUCT.

My biggest struggle in life probably is the feeling of not fitting in. That just doesn’t come with a lot of doubts, but also produces a negative spiral and makes you sometimes feel like you belong nowhere.

The only thing that always helped me, is changing my environment. But is that the key? Is it not just running away? Let’s face it.

Like Albert said, if you judge a fish by how he climbs a tree, he will forever feel stupid.

I’m a big believer in making the best out of your situation, no matter where you are at - both physically and mentally. We can always find a way to contribute, be creative and becoming our best version.

But sometimes, and for me most of the times, I’m just in the wrong place - and I bet you have been to.

Back home in Switzerland I have the best life, honestly. Family, friends, quality time, safety and much more. Everything one needs to be happy for the rest of his life. And I’m not asking for more, I’m aware of all my blessings. But still there is something big missing, the spark, my footprint or just simply put the purpose for existing.

I’m convinced that every single human being has their mission. Their purpose for existing.

I also believe that everyone is connected to that, but a lot of fear and distraction and the need for safety and fitting in puts it in a place only few people can access. Maybe everyone once felt they are meant for more or something else than how they live right now. What difference people that struggle with the same problems like me and the ones that can’t relate is only one thing:

Facing the fact that discomfort and uncertainty are the gates to the hidden treasures of life and our full potential as individuals.

Always when I’m in Switzerland I feel like I don’t fit in. I seek real connection, inspiration, creativity.

Both me and Sam are probably the most simple people you will ever meet. No drama, ever. Always thankful.

But what I’m not able to do is waste my time around a social construct that doesn’t fit my values. But I already talked about this topic and keep this very brief here.

I’ll trade cars, clothes, unnecessary insurances with a blink of an eye with memories, adventure and the constant struggle of reinventing oneself to find my purpose of existing.

But as humans we also need routine, income, stability and most of all - is there even a purpose of existing? Am I asking to much questions?

I believe no one will ever know. The road to our goals is the goal. I learned that by now. There is no arriving.

The only thing awaiting us at the top is disappointment, emptiness. We arrive just to learn the way was the learning all along.

So why even reach for the top? Reach for more? Why not settle. Why not being okay with working along dead people walking? Why not being okay with living in a capitalism construct and being infiltrated with fear and scarcity? Why not being okay with worrying about the wrong things and complaining about neighbors and traffic? Why not being okay with just seeing myself as a victim and blame everyone else?

Because I saw too much. Too much happiness. Too much different cultures. Too much not worrying despite having to little. Too much being grateful for the simple things. Too much living and coexisting with nature. Too much not complaining. Too much joy instead of envy. Too much love instead of hate.

I don’t even talk to people that haven’t travelled about why I think the way I do. If you have, you will understand me.

Being born into a society that has absolutely everything, and I mean EVERYTHING - why waste your time with jealousy, anger and fear.

But again, if you want a change in life, it’s completely up to you - and me.

In the end we are just a product of our environment - so choose wisely.